If I disappear...

Ever wonder about it?... If one day you just "disappear"?... Without a trace... I've been giving a deep thought about it, and somehow I think it'll be great if God grant me the luxury to just disappear someday... One people less who bug others time and again, one people less in this crowded place called Earth, one potential whatever less in the future... Heck, the benefits are endless... Ah, I wonder if Suyin or Alex read this... Or Ihab, or Shinta... Hmm... Maybe they'll ignore it anyway... It's not like I'm in their top-list or whatever...

Now, about today... Lemme see... ... ... Class today is juat as great as today... I got to know the lecturer even more... He's someone passionate about life... I sense it when he talked about Siti Shamiza (I hope I spelled her name right), the executive who was shot at Giant the other day... He said, "No one should die the way she died"... Someone so passionate about life of others as well as himself... I wish I had that quality... I'm more passionate about other people's life (in other word, suke menyibuk), than my own...

Today, I eat alone (again), sleep after lunch (again), feel miserable (as usual) etc... Stll haven't got my salary, and my enumerators were getting anxious... Need to get a job soon... I don't want to ask money from Mom and Dad again... Or from my friends... Not that I have any... ... ... Problem is, my luck sucks everytime I really need them... At this rate, I might have to scour EVERY possible place for a job, WITHOUT actually hoping to get one... *Sigh* I guess being Ismat aka Shinnoir comes with a no-luck guarantee stamped on your head... How pathetic...

Suyin seems happy theese days... That's good... Being grouchy and moody in your exam year is never a good idea...

Out of ideas to type... Ja, shitsure shimasu...